promises. lies.

My feelings now are indescribable. Being asked on my commitment into someone that really dazzled my heart. I was stunned and searching for the perfect direction. Promises, they had been haunting me from the pasts. But till I was being asked a simple question that requires the highest commitment from a man, I refused.

Baby, you're so sure that I'm the one ?

This question is simple. However my heart was playing, if I would give the answer that came from my heart, it will either be a lie or a promise. Pasts had been haunting me on promises. How many promises I had broken, and how many undone promises I had gave. I do not have the courage anymore to tell you that "Yes, you are the one," because I know how much it hurts when the promises are broken. I wished to apologize, but sometimes, apology does not solve everything.

I am wondering if I am financially funded by a stable career today, I will consider you being the one that walks down the aisle with me. The moment that I can see how happy you are, it is so memorable that I can even remember how many steps we took to walk along it. But, the reality spreads in front of my eyes, I am not. I am still a student who looks to the front to search for my future, before looking for our future.

I know how much it hurts when I said I do not know about it. I know, I understand how do you feel. I just do not want these wonderful promises become devastating lies.