last night.

I saw you last night. You still have a wide smile on your face, but I realised something. Something that makes my heart aches. You are pale, you are different from the last you, the you that I knew before. I did not want to talk to you, it is not because I am angry at you. It is just that I feel guilty by talking to you. I leave you for no reason, to be exact, it is like leaving you without a trace, speechless.

I walked you up to bring PY home. I do not know why, my mind keep telling me that I need to walk you there. If none, I will be worried about you. Even it is just a floor up. I am afraid something bad will happen to you, I am afraid that I will lose you forever. I walked you up again to bring you home, I gave you the towel, so that you won't be under the rain. You offered me to walk with you, but I did not want to. The reason is because, you and I, are no longer that close anymore. We have a gap between us, I respect you, and you respect me. My heart tells me that I should walk with you, but my mind did not.

We texted, eventually we argued. I guess our war will not end. Both of us only tolerate when we are together. When we are not, we argue, we fight. I do not know what for, but what I know is that, the Love is not there anymore.

I am in a dilemma. I am lost.